I fell in a vat of despair

Looking at my sadness and wishing it would disappear.

Why are you here mister lonely feeling?

Why can’t you just die like the rest of my optimism?

My self-confidence became a traitor

Establishing itself as a trader

Bartering my self-confidence for self-loathing.

Now I am drowning in this sadness

Watching helplessly at my fleeting happiness.

Who are you? Said, the mirror

I once was me, something like a pharaoh

My face droops as I wish for a better tomorrow.

Where have all my friends gone?

I remember the days we use to chill but now they are all gone

Our laughter sounded like pure happiness,

Without my friends life feels scarier than a tempest.

My adventurous spirit have crucified itself

I became an adult and ruined myself.

Choosing a woman over the abundance of friends

And when she’s gone, then lonely became the weekends.

Having friends is quintessential to enjoying life

Choosing an insecure partner is like holding the blade of a knife

Choosing her or choosing friends always ends with regrets.

Any choice made will see me disappearing like a silhouette.

Restless are my lonely days

Regretting choices made in my early years

I am feeling confused and dazed

after alienating all those who truly cares.

Where have you been? I asked my once enthusiastic self

Why did my self-confidence runaway from myself?

What about adulting made you not want to stay?

Please rescue me from this mundane life before I decay.

The anguish in me brought me to my knees

I am an innocent man begging to be free.

Just to be me in my prime

Which Is to be free all the time.